Pretty is as pretty does.

Transfer day! Everything went according to plan. Hubby and I arrived right on time. I had it timed just right, bladder full but not uncomfortable. Business as usual. Unfortunately, they had to thaw all 4 embryos to get two good ones to transfer. Both of those embryos are a grade 2, 8 cell, beauties. About as nice as you can get frozen, according to the Doc. The other two were both grade 2's also, one a 6 cell and the other only had two. They are putting them in culture for a couple of days to see if they make it to blast and then re freeze. My RE says there is a good chance the 6 cell will make it, but not so much the 2 cell.

I was saddened by the news. I wish now that I had told them to transfer the 2 cell embryo as well, what would it have hurt? I don't believe that the pretty embryos are always the ones that stick. In fact, I have lots of evidence to the contrary. My twins started out as lumpy, poor grade embryos of only 4 and 6 cells respectively, with lots of fragmentation to boot. On the other hand, I transferred 12 embryos that were picture perfect. You should have SEEN the 4 beauties I transferred in my first two cycles. They looked like embryos from a text book. And so did the ones I transferred today, with just a teensy tad of fragmentation from the thaw process holding them back from perfection. What a mystery this whole process is.

Anyway, chances are I don't have the fall back plan I was hoping for. This scares me, because in my mind I was already prepared for the next FET. If I don't get pregnant, and the embryos don't make it to the next stage, this may be the end of the road for me.