Monday I drove in to the clinic. It was a beautiful sunny day. Traffic was light (for once) and I was right on time. I've got follicles. Lots and lots of follicles. Some pretty good, 17, 14's...and lots of 12's both on the right and the left. I go back tomorrow for another check, and if all looks good, I'll probably trigger on Thursday night and have the retrieval on Saturday.
Driving in all I could think of is how different it is for us. Tomorrow will be CD14 for me, the time I would normally be ovulating if I wasn't suppressing everything. If we were a normal fertile couple, my husband and I would just have sex, like everyone else in the world. Maybe we would wake up early and do it quickly, listening for the patter of little feet running down the hall to interrupt us. Maybe we would have a night of romance, have a candlelit dinner and watch a romantic movie. But that isn't for us. Our babies are made with us not even in the same room as each other. The babymaking process is clinical, calculated, scientific...and cold.
Tomorrow I'll drive in to the clinic again. As I do, somewhere there will be a college student picking her panties up off of a stranger's floor and doing the walk of shame...pregnant. There will be a young married woman who wakes up and quietly tiptoes to the bathroom and hopes, maybe today?....pregnant. Moments of passion, love, lust, and even violence everywhere making babies, but not here. My husband and I are state of the art. Nothing but science and cutting edge technology for us!
Wake me up early tomorrow, because I've got to go make us a baby :)
So glad to hear that things are looking so good! Fingers crossed for you!!!
ReplyDeleteI like your musings today. We had our first OB-gyn appt and were asking when we could have sex again and she said wait until our 8 week check-up. It's so funny that my husband and I were told not to have sex for the last 7 weeks and we are pregnant. Who knew that you could pregnant without sex?! We are indeed cutting edge. Glad your cycle is progressing well!
ReplyDeleteThanks for your comment tonight. Good luck with you trip to the clinic tomorrow. I'm hoping it all works out for you!
ReplyDeleteIsn't that the truth? It still blows my mind that some people get pregnant just by having sex. It seems so primitive ; )
ReplyDeleteWait, we just are supposed to have sex and get pregnant? Noooooo, pshhhh... that was just something they told us in Health class, right??
ReplyDeleteGood luck my dear! Can't wait to hear how everything goes.
I've often felt like this on our IVF journey... it's so hard to let go of the idea of wanting to do it the 'old-fashioned' and fun way :) xoxo
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