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Friday, March 30, 2012

Sick and tired

Yet another lovely Friday in the chickenpen. This week our house has been taken over by the plague. It started on Wednesday night with my husband feeling poorly. Then early Thursday morning it spread to me, and last night poor NB fell ill. He's been such a brave, little trooper. AK has been wearing pull ups all day, poor thing, although she seems to be her chipper self. Only DA appears to be unaffected so far (knock on wood).

I was supposed to go to the clinic on Thursday, but for obvious reasons, it wasn't happening. The nurse told me to keep taking the Lupron and to call today if I couldn't make it. Well, I feel worse today than yesterday. According to the nurse everything is fine and I can keep taking the Lupron until Monday. I hope I can make it. I just feel so tired. I can't help but wonder if this is a sign that I should just give up. My heart already feels heavy. To be honest, I just don't have any hope that this cycle will work. I just want to dig a hole and crawl inside. I feel so shaky on my feet already, and I just know that the next wind is going to knock me down. I guess that all I can do is to keep putting one foot in front of the other and hope I'm wrong.

11 comments:

  1. Sorry you're feeling so crappy. I imagine lupron plus being sick would be awful. Hope you start feeling like your normal self again soon. I have every hope that this cycle will work for you.

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  2. Ugh! Feel better! I am sending chicken-soup thoughts your way.

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  3. Sorry to hear that you're so sick and that your hope is deflated... I hope you're wrong too and that this cycle works out. I'm keeping my fingers crossed and my hope high for your cycle to be the one :) xoxo

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  4. I hope you and your family soon will be well again.

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  5. It is so hard some days just to simply keep going. Sending you love and strength.

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  6. Big hugs to you. It's so hard to keep your chin up, especially being sick. ESPECIALLY on Lupron, which I think is the worst drug of them all. I always felt so emotional and hopeless when taking it. Hang in there and lean on all of us...we are here for you...
    XOXO

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  7. What a literal pain! So hope you are feeling better soon. (((HUGS)))

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  8. I hope everyone feels better soon. Hang in there. Take it one day at a time. Hugz!

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  9. Deep breaths, deep breaths. Hopefully you have survived the weekend and everyone is better. Sending good thoughts that today looks (feels) better.

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  10. Uff, just read your recent updates. Tough times, hope it has turned around and you can begin to feel hopeful again about your current cycle. Best wishes.

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